Hi! For those of you who don’t know me, my name is Jenny Eden. I am the creator of Eden Knows Implants, and I know what it’s like to look in the mirror and not be happy with your breasts.
Today, I’m really excited to tell you a little bit of my story about how I went from disappointed in my breasts to loving what I see in the mirror 🙂
If you’re wondering about my first breast augmentation experience, here’s the story behind it!
Let’s start with my Grandpa…
As a little girl, any time I would see my Grandpa, he would always say, “Look at you, such a pretty girl!!” Whenever he said it, I always ran into his arms to get one of the bear hugs he was known for.
I believed him. I was such a pretty girl.
Fast forwarding… When I turned 14, my breasts started developing extremely fast. I went from an A-cup to a C-cup in a single year, and over the next 12 months, I had grown to a Triple-D.
Now I know what you’re thinking… Why in the world would I have gotten breast implants if I was a natural Triple-D?! Due to my rapid develop, my breasts didn’t have enough “adipose” tissue to round themselves out. This resulted in long, low hang breasts…
Or more appropriately, “rocks in socks.”
Throughout high school, I became more and more self-conscious about how I looked in the mirror. I ended up wearing a lot of black to hide how low they hung (obviously I exaggerated it in my mind), and I always wore full-coverage bras to help them appear more round. It was really embarrassing for me, and I started creating “tapes.”
We All Have Them
“Tapes” are sound bites that we play in our head. Most tapes play something wonderful like, “My kids are beautiful” or “I’ve been so blessed.” But unfortunately, all of us have negative tapes too, don’t we? Of course, that creates a problem.
Because we believe that our negative tapes are just as true as our positive tapes.
For me, somewhere between 10th grade and 12th grade, I recorded over the “pretty girl” tape my Grandpa gave me and began to play a tape that sounded like this: “My breasts make me ugly.” And it played over and over and over.
Every time I tried on a new dress: “It’s a pretty dress, but my breasts make me ugly.” When I was invited to swim with friends: “I’d love to go, but my breasts make me ugly.” And even when my Grandpa told me I was a pretty girl…
“Grandpa’s wrong. My breasts make me ugly.”
By the time I turned 18, I had bought into the lie that if I fixed my breasts, I could be pretty again. So I decided to have an extremely invasive breast reduction surgery, and went down to a B-cup. But after the surgery, something was wrong… I still didn’t feel pretty. In fact, I realized that I had really enjoyed having big boobs (even though they looked like rocks in socks.) I couldn’t believe this had happened, and had no choice but to live with my decision.
Four years later, something wonderful happened.
I met a man (who would later become my husband) that didn’t look at me and see all the mistakes in my past or scars—literally and figuratively. He saw the pretty girl that my Grandpa had always seen, and he helped me identify and record over my ugly tape.
I realized that I could either live my whole life playing my negative tapes, or I could acknowledge them for what they were and choose to record over them. So I started played a new tape…
“I’m a beautiful, loved and significant woman.”
Back to Triple D's
A few years ago, I decided to get breast implants and go back to a Triple D. And since I was healthy emotionally, it ended up being one of the best decisions I’ve ever made for myself.
Getting implants has improved my life in countless ways, but I honestly don’t think they would have if I hadn’t recorded over my ugly tape.
And now look what I get to do with my life… I get to fill out clothes the way I’ve always wanted to, to feel sexy dressed or undressed… and best of all, I get to encourage wonderful women like yourself. It really doesn’t get much better than that!
There’s an important truth I want to leave you with…
You are the only person who can record over your negative tapes, and nothing in your life will ever make you feel like enough until you get rid of them. When I got rid of my negative tapes, I slowly started to believe that I really was who my Grandpa had said I was for all those years.
It’s a wonderful feeling to know that you’re such a pretty girl.
Where to Start
If you’re considering getting a breast augmentation, I really want to encourage you to follow my 7 Simple Steps. They will guide you step by step through your breast augmentation journey, helping you decide if it’s something you want and how to have the best experience possible 🙂